English Narrative: SasuNaru

My name is Naruto Uzamaki. It was my funeral an hour ago; I am shocked that he would even bother to go, for someone so cold and heartless. He doesn’t care that I am gone; he hasn’t grieved for me at all, just kept the same emotionless face.

This is the story of how I lived my last few months; of how he infected my life, worked his way in, only to destroy it.

[Start Flashback]
Naruto leaned back in his wooden computer chair that was usually pushed under the desk that held his computer and dorm telephone. He played with his sunny blonde hair as his other hand reached up to scratch absently on his tanned collarbone. He was meant to be doing homework, but for some reason he kept getting distracted.

He slowly stood, walking to his window, staring down at the street below at all the people, living their pointless lives. He looked up at the sky; the clouds were thick and dark. ‘What a gloomy day...’ he thought, staring around his messy dorm.

His thoughts were interrupted by a knock at the door.

“Naruto? It’s me Jiraiya. I need to talk to you.” Came a mans voice from behind the door.

“Oh it’s just you, come in you old hermit” He replied half-heartedly.

A man with long grey hair and a face like the map of the world opened the door, stepping inside.

“Why are you here..? You’re the principle of the scho-“ Naruto was cut off by Jiraiya talking over him. “Naruto I am here to introduce you to your new roommate; Uchiha, Sasuke.”

On cue a boy stepped inside, stopping in the middle of the floor, giving a small bow, his face as cold and emotionless as stone.

“Sasuke, this is Uzamaki, Naruto.”

The blonde bowed his head in greeting, before looking back at the boy.

As far as he could tell, they were complete opposites. Where Naruto was tanned, Sasuke was pale. Where Naruto had blonde hair, Sasuke had black. Where Naruto had ocean blue eyes, Sasuke had black. The only obvious similarity was age.

“Well, I will leave you boys to get acquainted, call me at my office if you need anything.” Jiraiya said as the two boys assessed each other, leaving them in an awkward silence.

“So... Uh...” Naruto had always hated silence.

“This place is a pigsty.” Sasuke remarked, dropping his bags, glaring at the other boy, “I am going out, it better be clean by the time I get back.” With that, the dark-haired boy walked out, slamming the door behind him.

Naruto stared at the closed door in shock, before scowling.

“I’ll be damned if I do ANYTHING for that stuck-up clean freak.” He muttered, turning back to his homework.
[End Flashback]

We had hated each other so much, living with his was terrible. Because we couldn’t avoid each other, it became hard to do anything. We had to take turns at playing music, using the bathroom, even using the lounge room sometimes. Now and then it got so bad to the point where I slept in Shikamaru’s dorm.

I wasted almost two months of my life being afraid to go back to my own dorm, just because of that Teme!

One night, after a particularly hostile fight with Sasuke, I knocked on Shikamaru’s door only to have Kiba answer, a ridiculous grin on his face, his usually mused hair looking as wild as ever.

“Hey man!! I was just going to come find you!” He didnt seem embarrassed at all about the suggestive situation he had been caught in. “You wanna come to the carnival with us??” He asked in his usual loud and excited voice.

“Who else is going?” I ask warily

“Everyone! Me, you, Shika, Choji, Ino, Sakura, Neji, Lee, TenTen, Gaara, Temari, Kankuro, Hinata, Shino, and even Sasuke; I want him to feel like one of us since he is kind of new to the group”

“Ugh... Sasuke?! Do I have to go?” I groaned

“Yep.” Another toothy grin from Kiba.

The day of the Carnival changed everything...


[Start Flashback]
Sasuke sighed as he grudgingly sat in the seat next to Naruto’s, briefly glancing over to the blonde boy before turning back to glare at the man who was currently reciting safety rules. He felt eyes on him, and turned to see Naruto’s big blue eyes boring into his own. They quickly exchanged scowls before turning away, just in time for the man to announce that the roller coaster was about to begin.

Naruto had yelled and screamed, hollered and screeched, his hands flailing about, looking for something to grab and hold on to. Soon enough, his searching fingers found something, giving him a sense of security; even though he couldn’t look down to see exactly what it was he was holding.

When the ride had finally ended, the two boys – one shaken from the rid and one emotionless, as usual – looked down at their hands, feeling skin on skin on skin. Naruto blushed heavily when he realised it was Sasuke’s hand that he was squeezing.

He quickly let go, scratching the back of his head sheepishly, attempting to laugh it off. Sasuke allowed himself a small smirk, letting it grow wider at the blondes shocked face. Shocked that Sasuke would ever be this remotely accepting.
[End Flashback]


Ever since then all we did was get closer. Out fights got smaller and smaller until they shrank into nothing. We started to actually care about each other instead of just flat out HATING each other. We ever started greeting each other. Ever though it was awkward at first, we both enjoyed each others company ALOT more.

The next development in our growing friendship occurred when I stopped paying attention in mathematics


[Start Flashback]
Naruto sat cross legged on his bed, frowning down at the open book resting in his lap, chewing on his pen, wracking his brain for the answer to this seemingly impossible question. After about five minutes, he admitted defeat, groaning loudly he flopped back onto the bed. He jumped when he heard Sasuke’s voice.

“What’s wrong?”

Naruto was surprised the other boy would care enough to ask. Infact, saying Naruto was surprised would be an understatement.

“Uh... Just got a hard question in my homework.” He answered, slowly sitting up.

“What subject are you doing?”

“Maths.”

Sasuke stood up, stepping between the mess that Naruto had made by dropping his clothes and what not all over the floor. He sat down near the boy, checking over his mistakes, pointing them out and showing Naruto how to do them correctly.

“Wow, I think I get it now” Naruto was awed.

“That’s good” Sasuke laughed, starting to get up.

“Uh, Sasuke... Thanks. You helped alot.” The Uchiha turned back to see the blonde smiling warmly and couldn’t help but sit back down, his eyes locked with the blondes. He studied Naruto’s face, his large blue eyes, full of hidden sadness and something else too deep to explain. His flawless and evenly tanned face. His beautiful soft blonde hair that fell into the gorgeous spikes. And last, his lips. Full and soft.

Before the Uchiha could help himself, he was leaning towards the other boy, his eyes still looking over the beautiful face. Just before he was going to close his eyes, he heard Naruto’s voice.

“Sasuke...?” The blonde’s voice was shaky, and Sasuke knew that the question was loaded.

Being broken from his small trance, he leaned away, looking at the floor, before standing up and sitting back down at his desk.

An awkward silence filled the room, so [as usual] the blonde had to try and break it.

“Hey, can you put on some music?” he asked the moody boy who was sitting at his computer. A few seconds later ‘Endlessly, She said’ [from AFI] boomed out of the PC’s speakers

‘Walked into our world and made horrible sounds
I can still hear them today, strangely they seem beautiful now,
Though they outlast my love.

Still each time I always meant,
Every word, every one.
Though in time, they finally bent.
Every word, every one. Every word.

“I will wait for you,”
She said, “Endlessly.”
“I will wait for you.”
So spoke misery...’

Naruto realised he was singing along to ‘Endlessly, She said’ and quickly shut his mouth, blushing and glancing at the dark haired boy. Blushing redder to find him staring, But not with hatred in his eyes like usual. Naruto gave him a small smile, happy that they had become closer. Close enough to maybe even call friends.
[End Flashback]


That was it. That was the night I fell for him. I just didnt know it yet...

I think it was the same for him, at least I thought it was, I now know that he never really cared.

After that night we went from; having to TRY to be pleasant to each other, to just doing it naturally. We started doing everything together. We sat together in most classes, and at night we would talk and laugh together.

Sasuke had joined my group of friends [basically everyone that went to the carnival] properly, hanging out in our little area as if he was always there. He was one of us.

But the best thing about it, was that I was his favourite, and he was mine. We couldn’t even remember why we ever hated each other. And that was why the teachers started to consider us ‘Partners in crime.’, even though I pulled all the pranks and he just tagged along for the punishment...


[Start Flashback]
Sasuke sat moodily in detention, glaring at the moron on the other side of the room.

“I can’t BELIEVE I got a detention! And it’s all YOUR fault.” He scowled, before letting out a slight smirk, “Although I suppose seeing the pen hit the teachers face was amusing.” He giggled. “And when you threw the pen you looked so cute- uh, I mean; you look so... Blonde!” Sasuke finished

Naruto’s eyes widened a little, before a relaxed smile slid onto his face. He slowly stood, making his way over to the dark haired boy. He sat down next to him, noticing that Sasuke had raised an eyebrow questioningly.

“Would you consider us as friends?” Naruto asked

“Uh... Yeah... I suppose” Sasuke was shocked, he had ALWAYS kept to himself, never had he met anyone that he could consider a friend. That considered him a friend.

“Good. So would I.” The blonde grinned.

“Why did you ask?”

“Because... When you’re with me... You smile, and laugh, and joke. But around other people you’re so guarded. An-“

“Like you.” Sasuke cut Naruto off, only to say those two simple words that meant so much.

“What?” Naruto knew exactly what Sasuke was talking about, but played it dumb, just in case Sasuke hadn’t noticed.

“You’re guarded too. I’ve seen it. Seen the mask you wear, I have seen it slip too. That happy disposition of yours is all just an act. Some of your smiles are sad enough to make my heart break in two. I have seen what lies beneath your facade. We are more similar than you may think.”

“I know...” Naruto whispered. Unsure if he should be upset that someone had seen through him or happy that he had someone. Someone like him.

“I guess we both know true loneliness...” Naruto said, smiling. A smile that could not be analyzed to fit any emotion. It had too many to be labeled as just one.

A comfortable silence filled the room. The boys slow breathing and small movements were the only noises.

Before too long, Naruto giggled. “What?” The Uchiha asked.

“I am sorry for breaking your perfect behaviour record.” The blonde laughed, before starting on the ‘dumb apology note’ that the victim [the teacher] had asked to them write.

“Only you...” Sasuke whispered, his voice too low for Naruto to hear.
[End Flashback]


All I can say is that I was shocked. We were best friends, both boys, who were secretly in love with each other. I never pictured myself in a situation like this, but, not matter how weird it might have been, I wouldn’t have had it any other way.

I had someone I could trust, someone who understood, someone I could rely on. If you have that you don’t need much else.


[Start Flashback]
In between third and fourth class, Naruto’s group had migrated to the old Library [which no one occupied because everyone preferred the newer one] in which they were alone.

Neji, Sakura, and TenTen opted to study for a test they had in period 8.

Kiba had gone to the lounge area with five or six books on Sex Ed. Kankuro had followed him and the two giggled about this or that picture. Shikamaru had followed them, shaking his head at their immaturity, sitting lazily close by Kiba.

Chouji, Gaara, and Shino joined the noisy group too, deciding there was nothing better to do.

That left Lee, Hinata, Ino, Temari, Sasuke, and Naruto in the circular ‘Quiet room’ [a room with an opening to see into the lounge area that was used for students who wanted to read quietly] playing truth or dare.

Now Ino’s turn, she smirked around the room, before landing her pale blue eyes on Sasuke.

“Sasuke, truth or dare?” there was an apparent smugness in her voice.

Now, Sasuke had told Naruto alot about his past, things that he would never dream of telling anyone else. Naruto told Sasuke secrets of his past too thinks that no one else knew. This aided their growing friendship too, adding a key ingredient: Trust.

For these reasons, Sasuke chose dare; Truth was too risky. Besides, what could Ino dare him to do that could be so bad?

The girl giggled mischievously at his answer, before whispering something in Temari, Hinata, and Lee’s ears. She received excited nods from all three.

“Okay, I dare you...” She paused dramatically, “To make-out with Naruto!” She exclaimed.

Sasuke’s jaw dripped. “You have got to be kidding me!” He groaned.

“Nope.” She smiled, “You two have to kiss. Properly. No disgusted faces either. Kiss as if you’re a couple. And you have to hold it for at least fifteen Seconds. Also, you hav-“

“Okay, Okay!” Sasuke interrupted her, hoping to stop her before it got worse.

He then turned towards Naruto, edging over until he was kneeling right in front of the boy. With heavy sighs, they both rid all emotion from their faces in an attempt to make the kiss look more convincing.

In sync, both boys moved forward, shutting their eyes and crushing their lips together. They moved together, opening their mouths and letting their tongue’s meet for the first time. Their faces and jaws moved as if they were one. Their heads swapped angles as Sasuke’s hand reached up to lightly cup the blonde’s jaw. Sasuke dominated the kiss, his face and body pressing Naruto to lean back a little.

This was not the first time Naruto had kissed another guy. Far from it. He and Kiba had made out plenty of times. So had he and Gaara, but all those times were solely for entertainment value. Before Sasuke had arrived at the school, he had also kissed a few guys; a secret he had told Naruto on one of those sleepless nights where they would sit in the dark and talk.

Both boys knew they had kissed alot longer than the fifteen seconds Ino had challenged them to, so they broke apart, only to be magnetized back together straight away.

Ino and Temari started squealing in excitement, attracting everyone else’s attention, save the three who were in a different section studying.

“Woo!” Kiba cheered, laughing loudly and Kankuro wolf whistled.

“OH MY GOD!! THEY ARE SO INTO EACH OTHER!” Temari screamed; a huge grin on her face.

At that statement, the boys broke apart, blushing slightly.

“You guys should totally get together.” Ino beamed.

“Ew, no.” They said in unison, but sharing a shy smile with one another that nobody else saw.

Sasuke’s only thought was ‘Its a damn good thing Sakura didnt see that, She had the mother of all crushes on me, she would probably have tried to murder Naru in his sleep!’
[End Flashback]


And that was it. We knew we liked each other, and that gave us confidence, the confidence that would lead to my demise.

It was as if he had planned everything out to happen like it did.

What if?


[Start Flashback]
Naruto paced the small dorm he and Sasuke had shared for over nine months, biting his nails nervously. He really did NOT know what to do. He had gotten himself into a BAD situation with a big decision. All he knew was that he felt something towards Sasuke, something strong, and that for some stupid reason he wanted to admit this to the other boy.

Being an orphan, and keeping to himself, Naruto had never known love. Not real love anyway. He didnt even know if it was love he felt towards Sasuke, but whatever it was was stressing the hell out of him.

‘To hell with it...” He thought, ‘There is no point me hanging around here and stressing. Classes will be finished soon. I’ll go find him and tell him.’

Around the same time, Sasuke was collecting his books and heading out of the classroom towards to exit of the school building.

‘Im going to tell him today. No backing down’ He told himself. ‘He didnt come to class today so he’ll be in the dorm. It can’t be that hard, I suspect he feels the same way, admitting it to each other is the only obstacle.’ He tried to reassure himself, but he was still panicking.

“Sasuke!” a feminine voice called out.

He turned to see Sakura running towards him frantically. She stopped in front of him, blushing madly.

“Yes?” He asked.

“Um.. I just.. Well... I needed to give you something.” She looked down at her feet nervously.

“Okay..” He consented warily.

He looked past her head, seeing Naruto approaching about 30 meters away. He was about to walk over to him when suddenly Sakura’s face was in his own, her lips on his. Out of the corner of his eye he saw Naruto’s eyes widen and the blonde stop dead in his tracks.

Sasuke quickly pushed Sakura away, glaring down at her. “Dont EVER do that again. I mean it.” He growled threateningly, before turning back to where Naruto had been.

The boy was gone.

“Argh!” Sasuke groaned, running towards their shared dorm.

He turned the corner just to see Naruto driving away, tears streaming down his face, an angry scowl planted there. Sasuke cussed loudly, not knowing what to do or where the blonde was going.
[End Flashback]



All I remember is pain. The pain in my heart that brought the tears to my eyes. Everything was blurry. I saw headlights and heard the screech of tires on the road.

What if I never went to that Carnival?
What if I had paid attention in class and didnt need your damned homework help?
What if you weren’t given a detention with me? And we never had that conversation...
What if I had studied for the test instead of playing truth or dare; Instead of kissing you...?
What if i left the dorm to tell you my feelings five minutes earlier?
What if I had taken a few seconds less to hit the brakes?

What if?
Would I still be alive?

All I know it’s that I am here now. Here. Here watching you, Sasuke. As you return to the dorm in your crisp funeral suit, Un-caring that I am gone.






Sasuke stood in the middle of his dorm, staring around at Naruto’s belongings, at photo’s of them together, at places that they had spoken, fought, bonded, and loved. The place still smelled of the blonde, still looked like he was living there.

‘You can’t be gone... No. Not you... Anyone but you.’

Sasuke felt a solitary tear glide down his emotionless face.

“Death... Take me instead.” He whispered.

Another tear made its way over his cheek, and his mask cracked. His handsome face scrunched up in pain as he hunched over, falling to his knees, as if he had been struck physically. It had just dawned on him that he would NEVER see Naruto again.

“It’s all my fault...” He sobbed, “Naru... I am so sorry; I wish I could see you one last time, just to explain.” He kept his voice quiet, but couldn’t control his face muscles, which were twisting into faces of anger, pain, and most of all: Guilt.

“I loved you so much...” His voice had lowered to a hoarse whisper.






Naruto – Wherever he was – Watched his friends breakdown, hearing every word as if Sasuke had been telling them right into his ear.

“I forgive you... Sasuke! I forgive you! I love you!” he yelled his thoughts over and over, stopping dead when he noticed Sasuke looking up as if he had hear him.

The Uchiha looked around quizzically, before standing up, “I am actually starting to hear him in my head... Good God.” He sighed, before slowly standing.

“I will see you again, Naruto. We’ll laugh together once more...” Sasuke stated, as if promising it to himself. He smiled, hope mending his shattered heart. Naruto smiled along with him.